the upper bout

Finale of Seem (redux)

It’s all about noise. About the back and forth of improvisational counterpoint — an F flat ostinato call here, an arpeggio of the B scale in response there… like the scale of wildfires and flash flood cycles in call and response in a dozen places across the world… it doesn’t seem to end. Ash, dirt, and water transmogrified into an inexorable mud-wall swallowing all in its path… ten feet tall and half mile wide… There is no hope of escape in his mind. It’ll be his turn eventually… The skronk squalls out of his alto saxophone demand this much… But he can’t go on, even though the drummer beats an exquisite syncopation, and the bassist picks something near the upper bout so yawling and transcendent that he considers not walking away forever. But it’s not enough. The last note he ever blows is a C major. In C, he thinks, I’ve heard that before. He drops the sax as ceremoniously as thee final mic-drop, and bares his teeth — more grimace than smile — to the two dozen assembled in the dark. He beats it for the nearest bridge of fatal height. This is thee finale of seem.

What I’m Reading:

“But art doesn’t have to make sense. It doesn’t even need to be good. So don’t worry about being smart and let go of being ‘good.’”

— Jerry Saltz / “Jerry Saltz’s 33 Rules for Being an Artist”

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sharp even here

Rasped Haiku

Her sickness resolved—
Distilled, rasped clean by fever
Dreams, sharp even here.

What I’m Reading:

“No star burns forever . . . the world will eventually literally end.”

— Emily St. John Mandel / Sea of Tranquility

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your local listings

Time is a distillation

Coincidence is a construct

Check your local listings

What I’m Reading:

“Too late now to keep the polar cap from melting. Venice subsides; South America explodes.”

— John Barth / “Two Meditations”

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see for yourself

Cloud Enjambments

I’m the worst when it comes to fixing
Leaks, see for yourself.
I’ve seen maps with circular
Walls. I love color jet packs. But you’ll need paper
For a lively discussion with a white stripe
Down the middle of perception. Pointillist
Dots and washes create white swirls
Of cloud enjambments.
So why look at the moon?

What I’m Reading:

“Which snowflake triggers the avalanche? A house explodes; a star. In your spouse, so apparently resigned, murder twitches like a fetus.”

— John Barth / “Two Meditations”

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how to proceed

Algorithmically Filtered Prose Poem Farrago or: How ‘da Machine Reads My Handwriting

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A: It’s my dream / S: I’m crushed

What I’m Reading:

“No one asks what Mozart means. Or an Indian raga or the little tripping dance of Fred Astaire and Ginger Rogers to “Cheek to Cheek” in Top Hat. Forget about making things that are understood . . . All art comes from love — love of doing something.”

— Jerry Saltz / “Jerry Saltz’s 33 Rules for Being an Artist”

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echo of echoes

Press play to watch my short film glossolalia jacket (1:05)

Hear (haiku)

Ears color speckle
Parabolic sound resounds
Echo of echoes

What I’m Reading:

“Always, I hear a little oratorio
inside my head. Moths
have carried away my carpets,
like invisible pallbearers.”

— Henri Cole / “Free Dirt”

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of the shadow

The Death of Tane

Then there was the sickness—
So hot.
The vault of heaven darker,
Then darker still,
A black sun
At end.
It was succeeded by the shadow
Of the shadow—
Spreading
Nearer and nearer to the pin prick
Of light
Destroyed.
Distant,
To the west,
A white effluent—
Soft and yielding—
Fades.

What I’m Reading:

“But I wasn’t crying because I was sad. I guess I was crying because we had nowhere else to go, no choice but to go on living in this world. Crying because we had no other world to choose, and crying at everything before us, everything around us.”

— Mieko Kawakami / Heaven

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you look better

A Conversation in the Time of Galamatias

Our salad days are filled with bitter herbs and intractable roots—
Not so much a salad, but a melange
Of weeds and thistles—
Indelicate things in our mouths.
Every bite a mouthful of rot and offal—
Awful offal.
The kakistocracy is installed in the cupboards
The cups are off on a two week vacation in Marienbad.
We are mystified and malnourished.
Now I’ve had my wine…
And you look better than you did twenty minutes ago.
And you say:
The sky is a massive hole tonight—
My precious lucida is eating the universe:
Inside-out.
I can lay down and go to sleep.
The lights are receding
And the darkness is strangely pleasing.

What I’m Reading:

“History is something that very few people have been doing while everyone else was plowing fields and carrying water buckets.”

— Yuval Noah Harari / Sapiens

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two cotton balls

Like Glossolalia

Like a van garde avant. Like drinking tea filtered through a Russian soldier’s underwear. Like speaking through saxophone skronk. Like drying your back with nettles and swallowing a chaw of thistles. Like bored sawing through panel board. Like watching Window Water Baby Moving backwards. Like finding a nubbin of your desiccated umbilical cord pressed between two cotton balls thirty years later. Like finding a random head in your Tupperware Cake Taker. Like coming of age at 37. Like throat singing in Spanglish. Like pressing your ear close to an ambulance siren. Like walking off a pier because you hear the mermaids singing. Like, why would they be singing to you? Like, huh?

What I’m Reading:

“I write in the knowledge that there is nothing to lose by saying the difficult thing in common/uncommon ways, knowing that the beauty of a line lies in the alchemy of doubt, adrenalin and risk. Mainstream judgement of what is ‘good’ is based on elite opinion, curated over years. It is necessarily corrupt. I’d rather write an ‘ugly’ line, to such eyes.”

— Preti Taneja / “Notes on Craft”

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give me enough

Press play to watch my short film:
swing the heartache (1:27)

Swing the Heartache

Give ‘em enough rope.
Give me enough rope.
Rope.

Swing the heartache.
The heartache swing.
Swing.

Heartache.
Swing.
Rope.

What I’m Reading:

“In an unreasonable world, reason isn’t reasonable.”

— Kathy Acker / Empire of the Senseless

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