Now you see me, now you don’t. I’m lost to myself. Even I can’t see me. These are the places I lived. This is the art I made.
What I’m Reading:
“Artists manifested themselves in art, not the world, so humans could encounter them there, forever. People could return to books at any time and find them right there, those burning souls, their words as bright as the day they were written.”
Darkness envelops the visit from my dead father. He says psychic automatism betrayed him—the paranoiac critical debased him. We count
the shadows of ghosts untethered from the sheets over their heads— one forgot to cut the eyeholes out— a blind ghost singing off-key from a torn hymnal. We cram
communion hosts in our maws— this batch overcooked / oversalted— our holy pockets full then empty. We wade
ankle deep in wafers to the vestry. It’s snowing outside. We sink through the floor. We forget what we’ve forgotten.
What I’m Reading:
“If Justice Alito wants you to be governed by the laws of the 17th century, you should take a close look at that century. Is that when you want to live?”
— Margaret Atwood / “I Invented Gilead. The Supreme Court Is Making It Real”
sadness and fury and also, remarkably, hope but it fades oh it fades in the haze at the hot edge of 1000 ppm 20 feet of water coming best learn to swim best learn to row best to prep yr rocket to nowheres now
What I’m listening to:
“So this is for when you feel happy And this is for when you feel sad And this is for when you feel Nothing”