turned south again

Last Dose

Nothing enervates like changing midstream, he said to the garage walls, but we adapt.

William Katz, in the slipstream of placenta trip time, started anew.

Katz was 103 miles into his new life—the New England life he envisioned—when he stepped out into the heat and the hate of this particular August morning. He’d be out of Florida by midafternoon—but first, his last cafecito cubano and flan in his foreseeable future. One last stop in his accursed birth city and goodbye Miami! forever.

But the well-trod adage goes: careful what you wish, ‘cause the three fanged rattle snake has no compunctions . . . (well, it’s a well known adage in some arid places of the mind) . . . anyway, Katz was hankering for one last dose of Cuban sweetness before getting on with this next part of his life—so auspicious it was.

He could see himself making eyes at Medusa on Mount Katahdin, sparring with the Cyclops on the shores of Casco Bay, battling Scylla and Charybdis between the Quoddy Narrows.

He shook his fist in the air— you Canucks will hear from me!

Then a crystalline moment of clarity . . . Conch Key really isn’t such a bad place for placenta trip time . . . maybe I’m overreacting . . . maybe my Penelope waits there . . . patience, old man . . .

Then he slammed the cafecito and flan, pulled his pants up to his sternum, and turned south again.

What I’m Reading:

Sooner or later pain becomes too great for fear and when the people’s fear has gone the regime will have to go.

— Paul Lynch / Prophet Song

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action and reaction

Memorable Stuff I Read This Week

. . . we’ve gone over from the relative freedoms of capitalism to technofeudalism, in which those who control the platforms have direct control over the rest of us, reducing us to the station of “cloud serfs.”

— Leif Wetherby / “Think capitalism is terrible? This economist says it’s already dead.“ / The Washington Post


He spends his life 
Believing there’s another 
Standing on his own shoulders 
Looking out to sea.

— Stephen Kuusisto / “Dark Joys”


Governments, business leaders and development banks have two years to take action to avert far worse climate change, the U.N.’s climate chief said on Wednesday, in a speech that warned global warming is slipping down politicians’ agendas.

Scientists say halving climate-damaging greenhouse gas emissions by 2030 is crucial to stop a rise in temperatures of more than 1.5 Celsius that would unleash more extreme weather and heat.

— Kate Abnett and Simon Jessop / “U.N. climate chief says two years to save the planet” / Reuters


I SAID I LOVED YOU AND I WANTED
GENOCIDE TO STOP
I SAID I LOVED YOU AND I WANTED AFFIRMATIVE
ACTION AND REACTION

— June Jordan / “Intifada Incantation: Poem #8 for b.b.L.”


But for a New York cycleur, the ideal pace is neither fast nor slow. It’s a stately in-between tempo that allows you to scan the landscape, in Luiselli’s phrase, “as if through the lens of a movie camera.” Your trip to the grocery store becomes cinematic, a tracking shot that sweeps the skyline and street and sidewalk. You catch sight of the office tower stacked against the horizon, a pair of Chuck Taylors slung by their shoelaces over a telephone wire, a squirrel scampering out of a trash can with the remains of a bagel. You vacuum up shopfronts and signage, advertising slogans, graffiti, hundreds of faces, and hundreds more faceless heads bent over cellphones. A bicycle ride offers the best of travel by foot and by motor vehicle. You can take in the panorama in its blurry breadth or slow down to consider the details.

— Jody Rosen / Two Wheels Good: The History and Mystery of the Bicycle


The sun
dims its light
behind a morning
Times of cloud.

— James Schuyler / “In earliest morning”


There is no future point of no return, beyond which unchecked climate change will become catastrophic. That point has already passed. Conditions are already catastrophic. And the present is more and more dominated by the contours of this worsening catastrophe. What is possible now?

— Matthew Salesses / “If cli-fi acts as warning, and it is too late for warnings, what is the point? There must be another way.” / Lithub.com

What I’m Listening To:

Faces arrive
Like weather
Nose to meet you
Mouth to feel you

— Loma / “How Will I Live Without a Body”

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the intransigence biblical

… of ellipses & bovinity divinity …

… it was something about ellipses …

. . . to space them . . .

… or not …

… they decided not …
… but it was quite the kerfuffle …
… two bovine …
… cow & heifer …
… the intransigence biblical …
… the humors murderous …
… all bile & spleen …
… phlegmatic pops heard …
u cow!
u sow!
pig!
udder hanger!
… they stood ankle deep in effluvia …
let’s not fight any more, please
yes! from now on — every day, and in every way, we’ll be better, better, and better

… the aromatic smell of hickory smoked barbecue permeated the farm the following week …
… and nary a moo was heard …

What I’m Reading:

. . . muteness an onomatopoeia of the rising moon.

— Forrest Gander / “Ligature 4”

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thang a thang

dullard-boy blues

i gotta wap a dap thang a thang in my belfry
an a framework for nuthin
in my eyes ise got the bully-boy blues
& a highlight reel of murderous abandon
in my dullard-boy brain
i’se be living where reality
meets the fictions
& i’se fixin’ for a gun

What I’m Reading:

. . . I asked the wind to take care of my shadows, the shadows I had left in the streets of Gaza. I asked the cars not to run over my shadow.

— Mosab Abu Toha / The Things You May Find Hidden in My Ear

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edge of decay

Misbegotten Notes, USA (redux)

Scrolling down a number of superimpositions they multiply—pages of writing, collages, painting, films—audio also multiplied as reading and new noise fades in…

Also try flashlight projection of negatives or slides on wall and film it….

At the edge of decay (details: edge of pigeon…)

Multiple overlayered photos… build photo wall as u speak, cover Wooly shots with an innocent shot of childhood misconceptions

Use the writing done on Crispr Packs

Stripped down song like kg or tw

See photos in 2nd museum visit:

1. Like film “remains” very slow pans over dilapidated scenes, garbage, cultural detritus, read slowly over it

2. Like photos from “road journal” of torn pages revealing very little but enough of life story

3. Like dirt born “2nd History” rephotograph images of hoods and make them extended family, with narration hagiography over pix — and make documents or other artifacts like air mail mailers, maybe passaports etc

4. Make storyboards with pastel, cut-outs, pix, et al and animate it

5. Layer like contaminated “xy” & “stars” (no) and rephoto them as the final work

6. Repaint band aid packets for injuries suffered in childhood and equate them with the things I broke…

7. paint / sketch a real daddy doll with cut out clothes… or find a big unicorn rainbow second hand

8. Stones from different places visited and the ptsd inducing situations they mark

9. Copy and enlarge the word wall over and over until avatar of the turtle type of enlarged detritus and make wall of it

10. Tear pages out of book and paint something on it pertaining to you at Tim’s animal farm imbroglio

11. In-camera edited film: little bits and tips of crayons

12. Harumph!

What I’m Reading:

Every year, the richest American families receive almost 40 percent more in government subsidies than the poorest American families.

— Matthew Desmond / Poverty in America

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pulled a rabbit

hat topic

a hat is a hat
i pulled a rabbit out of her hat
to make a hat out of her rabbit
end user philistine

What I’m Reading:

More than half of the 2.6 million people living in Miami-Dade County could be displaced if sea levels rise by 40 inches . . . Miami could have around 80,000 properties flooding by mid-century, a multibillion-dollar risk, due to the combination of sinking land and rising seas, researchers say . . .

— Eliza Relman / “Miami shows how a new kind of gentrification is coming to US cities” / Business Insider

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2-beef apostrophes

fresh plans

we are a family of 2-beef apostrophes in a drunk bullfinch
you can donate your earlier gloats
slop them drop them + run
we r stylin’ in spaceship america
contact ur local pollution dept.

come wallow in the excrescence
eddy glimmers for bubble stunts welcome
sliver them under my doorway
fresh walls available for firing squad wannabes

What I’m Reading:

When I look at myself I see a stranger.
So obsessed am I with feeling
That I sometimes lose my way when I step free
From all the sensations I receive.

— Álvaro de Campos / “Three Sonnets”

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damaged by change

To Snare A Ghost (redux)

(a blackout poem)

Final List

Electric bedroom
New witch
Add wall next to track
Wedge or arc
Change entry

Too damaged by
Change
We want to keep them at 8 foot height
Close
Metal doors
No change to living hard pain
Change vanity
Apart (we may do this ourselves)
No change to pain

What I’m Reading:

Me? I entered this world
Already lost . . .

— Stephen Kuusisto / “Dark Joys”

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ash for you

Memorable Stuff I Read This Week

There is a fine line between losing yourself and finding your deepest truths. Sometimes there is no line at all.

— Laura Killingbreck / “Into the Wind” / Bicycling


The frequency with which bicyclists are hit on the road makes me believe it is a rite of passage and that not having personally been hit is an indicator that I have yet to achieve true bicycler status. This inference might stem from humanity’s positive spin on suffering: battle scars earn us glory.

— Tree Abraham / Cyclettes


you entered the dwelling place of dead tenderness alive
and in each step you recognized
yourself as an enticing answer
the world hasn’t changed from ash for you
nor has anguish crucified itself

— Tristan Tzara / “Speaking Alone”


In the labyrinth of memories, I often ask myself how much are they in flux, what mattered when, and how much has evaporated or changed tonality. How true are our memories?

— Werner Herzog / Every Man for Himself and God Against All


Besides, nothing inside me is ever certain or
In agreement with my self … Beautiful hours
Belong to others, or simply don’t exist.

— Álvaro de Campos / “Three Sonnets”


. . . only moving / does it have a soul.

— Pablo Neruda / “Ode to Bicycles”


In that moment I understood: Joy was its own form of power. It flowed through people, through landscapes, through wind and motion. It radiated from the body and was stored there, too. Joy was limitless and easy to share. After all these miles, I’d arrived somewhere.

— Laura Killingbreck / “Into the Wind” / Bicycling

What I’m Listening To:

I’m just dressing for the weather,
and the forecast is for pain

— Arab Strap / “Strawberry Moon”

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wisp of menace

agitator cola

i love me an agitator cola—drank many thru the years—during the revolutions and convolutions of martial law and coups—upon the ferment fringes, the ferry boat frivolities, and mere highlighter battles with the brittle page—a brush with agent coils and deadbeat plenipotentiaries—many a casual contrainsurgency compote consumed—electroplated and anodized death from above—daisy-chained and strafed—a full life of fingermark detonations and finicky trigger fingers—oh, what a feeling, that subtle wisp of menace before the darkness—i’m the hand of the man who leads—the hand of the man u voted for, or supported on his rise—i’m ur hand by transitive property—aren’t we a peach?

What I’m Reading:

The end is coming. I picture a radical turning away from thought, argument, and image, not just an approaching darkness in which certain objects can still be felt, but a condition where they no longer exist at all, a darkness filled with fear, with imaginary monsters.

— Werner Herzog / Every Man for Himself and God Against All

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