signature and textures

The Last Show

Overheard at the last concert before the pandemic (January 25, 2020) . . .

The most important band that people don’t know.

I first heard this song while taking a shower in a Czech hotel.

I love how the riff is just a couple of distorted noisy notes through a delay pedal.

I love it when he sings in different languages.

Drugs, man. That’s the only explanation for this.

The time signature and textures shifted various times in the first minute, not what I was expecting.

Imagine if radio played good music like this.

This song has no melody, is disturbing, and makes a person feel messed up in the head.

It swallowed my soul—consumed—I will never, ever be the same.

Imagine being a hateful teen and discovering a band that is an audible version of what you can’t get out.

Their new stuff is good, too.

What I’m Reading:

“In my honor they will one day name and electrify a chair.”

— Ben Lerner / Angle of Yaw

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blow on pinwheels

Pell-Mell Into Some Fusillade

Overheard at the artillery field…

Let’s take out that minuscule target with a 240 mm cannonade.
No need to sight anything let’s just shoot willy nilly.
Let’s just load them up and fire and screw the captains and the colonels.
Let’s shoot everything that moves: officers, infantry, birds, planes, squirrels, deer, and deer flies.
Let’s kill everything, blow on pinwheels, and shoot ourselves in the head with our sidearms.
Whattaya’ say, A.? Whattaya’ say?

I wanna kill everybody, too.
Boy they trained us well.
I say, what the hell? Why not?
They’re using us for fodder.
Why don’t we get them before they get us—kill stuff— and run pell-mell into some fusillade?
Let’s do it, S. Let’s do it.

Pinwheels turned.
Someone fired.

A: It’s my dream / S: I don’t like it

What I’m Reading:

“All that day I felt like that, like the sound of future bombs might dissipate, become no more than white noise like the freeway or the sea, or that I might stop hearing them altogether. Sleep like who I was before I knew any better.”

— Vanessa Veselka / Zazen

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roots everywhere your

Potting Shed Notes from Around the World

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INTEGUMENTS BOUND
HUNZUHATZ MELLI

What I’m Reading:

“The worst is to come. Everything leads to nothing: future tense; past tense; present tense. Perfect. The final question is, Can nothing be made meaningful? Isn’t that the final question? If not, the end is at hand.”

— John Barth / “Title”

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a jackhammer-mad

Tubercular Dream

There were no soft monsters last night—but a hue blue neural synapse saved a receding shadow.

I was sitting on a bar in a bird cage. I was naked. A black shape behind me, on my shoulder, picked at my neck.

A dripping voice: You shouldn’t hold it like that.
A lilting bass-drawl: It’s a woodpecker. It’s a blackbird.

It sank its talons—a jackhammer-mad bird. The pain searing. Electric. My transparent hands swatting at air.

S: It’s my dream / A: My nightmare

What I’m Reading:

“War A is going well and no longer a threat, small and mature. Like a bonsai. War B is in full flower. Its thin green shoots reaching across the ocean floor like fiber optic cable.”

— Vanessa Veselka / Zazen

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a different shade

Hue of Residue

This is a new art / new ideas
Mark making implement . . .

And this is another—the same
It seems.

And this one appears silver but it’s the same—
Just a different shade.

This is the last implement of the four.
Why do words always intrude?

What I’m reading:

“When you reside in a city which isn’t the city of your childhood, whatever you perceive lacks the resonance of memory.”

— Kathy Acker / Empire of the Senseless

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is no sleep

Is Sleepless Holograph

A slack holograph lives here
It pulses enigma and horror
It is, to obliterate all,
Missing a watchman—
There is no byproduct
There is no “is”—

There is hornet and horsefly.

There is no sleep—
Sleep eludes us.

What I’m Reading:

“… my neighbor hates me. she’s blocked off the window. there’s no light, everything is dark, she’s closed me in. she thinks she owns the light. she raised the cats, and then they came to my house.”

— Julia Wong Kcomt / “woman eaten by cats”

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your right plugholes

It’s my dream / Well it scares me!

Would you, could you, please, at least write 100 words as a draftee peasant to your rest-home workshop. Stretch your lenses out so they penetrate the air— the airships that pour out of you overtaking you & your apotheosis—your bullock neighborhood trade stay-at-home courtesan contraption—plateau & spread out through the urge and endless slime of creativity sparked by the single piston of plummage at the center of your quill. Quail in chestfuls of crusted & crestfallen tormentors—budgies out for the values of aphid genealogies of your right plugholes. Something plugging something puggish & streaming this way comes galactic fuzz. Buzz of outburst. Muzz of metallic streaks shearing untethered in howling skronk of empathic northward-facing missiles. Please be appalled by my lettering, please be appalled by my words. Please be appalled by these hundreds of workshops. Please try this at home.

S: It’s my dream / A: Well it scares me!

What I’m Reading:

“I shall now by means of my profound rational processes find the explanation for my madness, and human socially unacceptable behaviour.”

— Kathy Acker / Empire of the Senseless

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can’t do this

How do I manage to stay underground?

Are you going to help me?

Can you arrange it?

I can’t do this alone.

What I’m Reading:

“Now I only dream in English. I do not recognize my own voice.
I open my mouth and it carries no perfume of the people before me.”

— Muna Abdulahi / “ESL”

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articulations & agreements

Press play and watch my short film ÑACKETS 2 (1:05)

Beyond Set (Ñackets 2)

Thesis paper joyless—
After the injection of potassium bromide
there is no Marcela right-wing jet set.
After stimulation to the heart
uploaded their gelatinous set.
It’s unpredictable and immeasurable.
The new goal to express their defenses (set)—
immaterial & pileated & your articles,
articulations & agreements—beyond set
& beyond recognition. Beyond repair.

What I’m Reading:

“And I say then I’m glad I dream
the fire is still alive”

— Louise Glück / “Song”

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The Bullyboy Creep

Press play for my short film Bullyboy (1:10)

Thee Bullyboy Creep

Bullyboy in turtleneck aplomb
Stringing z’s together in an endless creep
Creep o’ the century
Creep o’ the week
Do thee Bullyboy Creep

What I’m Reading:

“We have the capacities for understanding and, at the same time, we understand nothing…”

— Kathy Acker / Empire of the Senseless

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