day of departure

The Best Stuff I Read Last Week

“The sourball of every revolution: after the revolution, who’s going to pick up the garbage on Monday morning?”

— Mierle Laderman Ukeles / Manifesto for Maintenance Art


“Everything I need to know grows wings / and lands on my skin. / A thousand tiny plovers / cover the skies, and shine / like moonlight on us both…”

— Farnaz Fatemi / “Heretic”


“Out of sight, I’m merely an annoyance,
one slim, obstinate wrinkle in night’s
deepening trance.”

— Rita Dove / “Postlude”


“We lie on the beach. Gray waves 
advance, retreat. The blue wind, salt scrub, 
scours my skin. Sharks troll for toddlers. 
Patrol planes hum below the cloudy scrim.”

— Pia Täavila-Borsheim / “My Friend, Her Grandson”


“I don’t know the names of the women in my family / past my great grandmother. How will I call upon them / when it’s time? Will I call them Mary or Venus / or Yemaya?”

— Diannely Antigua / “We Never Stop Talking About Our Mothers”


“I promise touch. I promise my voice. I promise a willingness to dream.
I promise your face hewn into lost history

— Tala Khanmalek / “Louise”


“Solitary bloom / of wild rocambole / day of departure nears.”

— Yuko Fujikawa / “Solitary bloom”

image: detail of carolina caycedo’s blooming (akiko and yuko) / clark art institute

What I’m Listening To:

El mundo de las luciérnagas
ha invadido mis recuerdos
Y un corazón diminuto
va brotándome en los dedos

(“The world of fireflies
Has invaded my memories
And a tiny heart
Is sprouting in my fingers
”)

— Tarta Relena & Manuel Oltra / “Las Alamedas”

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a dog castle

Overheard at the Experimental Music Festival (Saturday & Last Edition)

There’s a spider in there. It looks like it died…

I don’t even know what that means anymore…

Some guy in Japan spent a fuck ton of money to build a dog castle…

It’s not the same anymore, it used to be a marathon concert…

Yeah, he’s playing with everyone now…

Providence is cool…

I need to detune my accordion. The intention is not to sound like any accordion you’ve heard before…

I’ve been here many times for the Solid State Festival, and I chose to go to that instead last year…

It reminds me of Sepulveda…

I know my blues but I don’t know who that is…

I couldn’t hear anything!

Ice cream after this…

image: detail of daniel goirdano’s pleasure pipe lvi, mass moca.

What I’m Reading:

“To truly love we must learn to mix various ingredients care, affection, recognition, respect, commitment, and trust, as well as honest and open communication.”

— bell hooks / All About Love: New Visions

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look like crap

Overheard at the Experimental Music Festival (Friday Edition)

I warn you, my cat likes to sleep on people…

P.M.S.—stands for “putting up with male shit…”

The skill set that I have is so unique…

I look like crap…

Are you an artist? I make jewelry…

There’s more than one way to deconstruct an ecclesiastical hymn…

The word “technicolour yawn” is slang for vomit rainbows…

Holy mackerel! I would never want to miss this!

Oh look it’s Ensemble A… and B. Combined!

What are you listening to?

What I’m Reading:

“I was picking through the ruins for my roots but you weren’t there.
Must I make an agreement with the living?”

— Tala Khanmalek / “Louise”

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at the festival

image: detail of joseph grigely’s in what way wham? / mass moca

Overheard at the Experimental Music Festival (Thursday Night Edition)

It’s in ancient Greek and you would not understand…

Oh, John has such a refined ear—he can tell you if it’s in the seventh…

I have my own studio. I’m poor, but I make beautiful, intricate pieces…

They handmake the bagels and they sell out quickly. If you get there by 10am you might be able to get one…

Yes, it’s my fifth or sixth time at the festival…

Look they’re playing pvc pipes…

It’s time to dance…

My ancestors were not stars…

They’re dead.

What I’m Reading:

“no está desafinado, es un cuarto de tono”

(“it’s not out of tune, it’s a quarter tone”)

— Tarta Relena / from Tarta Relena’s Bandcamp site

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at your heels

Graupel

Graupel? How could there be the slightest hint of graupel during two 70-degree days in mid-January? We’ll soon be burning in a hellish wasteland—so why bother?

Just keep moving forward. Get going—it’s worthwhile to roll your boulder up the mountain— even as the water rises up the slope and licks at your heels. Hell, roll it in and under the water if you have to—just keep moving!

What I’m Reading:

“My walking and the path made everything simpler. I was in the flow, and I enjoyed every step … The path is the goal, and the goal is the path.”

— Torbjørn Elkelund / In Praise of Paths

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rush gain ground

“wolves, lower” (found tanka)

the mountains sheeted
ice and snow silent and taut
snow peaks cut the sky
the steaming wolves—rush—gain ground
taking of life forbidden

image: françois grenier de saint-martin / le combat de jeanne jouve pour sauver ses enfants de la bête du gévaudan / 1840, in public domain

What I’m Reading:

“For my part, I travel not to go anywhere, but to go. I travel for travel’s sake. The great affair is to move; to feel the needs and hitches of our life more nearly; to come down off this feather-bed of civilisation, and find the globe granite underfoot and strewn with cutting flints.”

— Robert Louis Stevenson / “Travels with a Donkey in the Cévennes”

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a few teeth

Crown No. 14 (redux)

I sat down brusquely on the dentist’s chair feeling I was about to get routed in some manner. Mint green all about the place. The trickling of water somewhere by my knees.

“Do you want the serial bicuspid?” he said, holding out what seemed to be a verdigris premolar.

“No, I want tooth number 14, for goodness sake,” I said.

“Do you have a nightclub act?” he said, and quickly came at my face with a syringe.

“Listen,” I said pulling at the bib on my chest popping it away from the clip. “I’ll be back. I have to go to the restroom and stare at my genitals in the mirror for 23 seconds. And then I need to hear the cantering of calico ponies before I can submit to crown number 14.”

He said he would accompany me to the restroom and do the extraction while holding up my shirt, but he was by no means going to look at me, or any other part of my anatomy, but my mouth.

“It’s not about that,” I said. “This isn’t a sexual thing. But listen, why don’t you wear your surgical mask over your eyes while you extract my tooth? I’ll guide you by tapping out in Morse code where you are relative to tooth number 14.”

“I don’t know Morse code,” he said. He grabbed a handful of sharp implements from the tray and led me down the hall toward the restroom.

“All the better,” I said. “I don’t know Morse code either, but I’ll moan you through it. Maybe you’ll take out a couple of the wrong teeth, or maybe you’ll accidentally chip a few teeth. I’d like that.”

He stopped short by the fish tank. I could hear the hissing of the aerator. All the tropical fish were gone; only the aquarium snails were visible lined up on the inside glass in a formation that spelled “NO.”

“Do you realize that you’re the only patient that comes in to have his teeth ruined?” He took a handful of small blue rocks from the aquarium floor. “Blueberry bubble gum rocks,” he said, and popped them into his mouth.

“That’s me,” I said. “Eight shows a week, two on the weekends. I like to stand out from the crowd. Why do you think I wear these mesh tank tops given the awful shape I’m in — to show off my deltoids or pectorals?” I slapped at my gelatin chest.

“No. I want everyone to enjoy these rolls of fat.” I reached down and grabbed three spare tires muffined over my belt. “Ridge upon mighty ridge. I want to set my jiggle to glory!”

“You are quite unique in all the most unexpected ways,” he said. “Do you do a nightclub act? Do you know any Englebert?”

“Let’s go, doc! Put that mask over your eyes and let’s extract this sucker.

image: unknown k’iché mayan artist / burial urn / mfa, boston

What I’m Reading:

“I am a hungry heart on skinny legs,
standing on the edge of a journey—
no maps, no guides, instincts muddled
by neglect or abandonment or mistake…”

— Deborah A. Miranda / “Torch”

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the heat dome

Your Ruff Collar, My Millstone (redux)

We live under the heat dome.

I see you across the barren parklet.
You are eating bits of soft pink flesh.

My hair wilts.
Your curls frizz.

I lick the hot sauce off my fingers.
You yell that you are an arriviste.

I scream that I was once part of the noblesse oblige and waved banderitas.

You warble an Edith Piaf song.
I huff gas out of a brown paper bag.

You sing two registers too low.
My viscera gurgles. I pee my pants where I stand — mud puddles form around my feet.

Tomorrow you will sign away your inalienable rights for a used 78 rpm record of “Thee Infanticide Blues.”
I will strum The Hits of the Borscht Belt Songbook tonight on my ukulele.

The gloaming hour.

I leave a minute after you do.

You to your elevator shaft.
Me to my abandoned mine.

Dark. Wasteland.

We may meet again next year.

What I’m Reading:

“Experience teaches us that governments are only moved to take environmental problems seriously when people vote for environmental political parties.”

— Preface to Final Statement of the First Planetary Meeting of the Global Greens in Rio de Janeiro, 31 May 1992

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rarely about intention

The Best Stuff I Read This Week

“History is one war after another with a bunch of murders and natural disasters in between.”

— Sarah Vowell / Assassination Vacation


“The last time there was this much carbon dioxide in the atmosphere, there were trees at the South Pole. All of our fossil-fuel burning is accelerating or rewinding all kinds of natural phenomena, mixing geologic eras and warping the previously well-defined strata of Earth history. We are hurtling into the future at a breakneck pace, only to be outrun by the distortions of nature we have unleashed by rampant extraction and consumption.”

— Tatiana Schlossberg / “She Taught Us to Do Nothing. Now Jenny Odell Wants to Save Time.“ / The New York Times


“You can fall in love
in a museum, but only

with the art
or its silence…”

— Kevin Young / “Diptych”


“To question the habitual. But that’s just it, we’re habituated to it. We don’t question it, it doesn’t question us, it doesn’t seem to pose a problem, we live it without thinking, as if it carried within it neither questions nor answers, as if it weren’t the bearer of any information. This is no longer even conditioning, it’s anaesthesia. We sleep through our lives in a dreamless sleep. But where is our life? Where is our body? Where is our space?”

— Georges Perec / “Approaches to What?”


“All writers are vain, selfish and lazy, and at the very bottom of their motives there lies a mystery. Writing a book is a horrible, exhausting struggle, like a long bout of some painful illness. One would never undertake such a thing if one were not driven on by some demon whom one can neither resist nor understand.”

— George Orwell / “Why I Write”


“Looking back on previous human calamities, all of which will be dwarfed by this, you find yourself repeatedly asking “why didn’t they … ?” The answer is power: the power of a few to countermand the interests of humanity. The struggle to avert systemic failure is the struggle between democracy and plutocracy. It always has been, but the stakes are now higher than ever.”

— Georges Monbiot / “With our food systems on the verge of collapse, it’s the plutocrats v life on Earth” / The Guardian


“He didn’t mean any harm, just as Father never meant any harm. But harm is rarely about intention.”

— Victoria Chang / Dear Memory

What I’m Listening To:

“Free advice is adjusted to market price
One dollar symbolic”

— Gastr Del Sol / “Each Dream is an Example”

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(a day) in my neighborhood pt. 39

What I’m Reading:

“I’m more of a Ten Commandments, rule-of-law girl myself. The closest I’ve ever come to anarchy is buying a Sex Pistols record.”

— Sarah Vowell / Assassination Vacation

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