rubs the promenade

the final finch

x. is a naturist who’s grown disenchanted
with her fellow ornithologists —

she’s on the fringe —
she loves a rouge finch

a house finch
with a particularly ruddy head

her disability —
she rubs the promenade of her femurs

her frontal lobe
abuts her occipital lobe

she finds herself lurking in shadows
and kicked a well-known addiction

for rondos without recurrences
and she surfeits epiphanies

she hatches a finch
it won’t be like other finches

it will be the final
finch.

What I’m Reading:

“In the presence of a crow it is incredibly difficult to pretend to inhabit a world in which all else is passive background to human lives and dramas. If we pay them even the smallest bit of attention, crows burst the anthropocentric bubble with spectacular flair.”

— Thom van Dooren / The Wake of Crows

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wonder and irony

Tangled in Fuzzbox Squall

A dendrite explodes into tufted blue chenille.
I’ve lost touch with the spirit world.
A hip-critic stands, head enveloped within the upper blue-puff downy mildew.
The view tangled in fuzzbox squall mirrored in the underside of a limitless panorama of blue.
A headless body intones sibilant recitatives from an oscillating installation.
Wonder and irony are cheap, say the ground and the sky simultaneously.
Oh, for the love of annihilation, says your father’s father’s ghost.
What we have here is the world anew.
Luna or the Moon by any other name.
The bane of our limited language.
Our desire for proximity forever deferred.
Another road not traversed, another opportunity missed.
The Moon. Jejune. This month before June.
Will summer never come. (it’s here year-round)
Let’s hide behind this hallway wall.

What I’m Reading:

“We say that there is a climate emergency. But it is truer to say that there is a humanity emergency. The climate crisis is caused by us human beings, because we have forgotten the intimate relationship we have with nature. We treat nature like a resource, a thing to use without end, for profit and for our ascendancy. In this way we treat nature like an enemy.”

— Ben Okri / “A Sacred Place”

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see it later

Snivel Bingo

It unfurled under the moon of twin pandemics
All of it challenging
Most of it bare
All of it raw

There are no terpsichoreans in drabble
Brevity and drag
The angels in the firmament made of cheap tin

Rain and wind continually eat the land
Reshaping it
Creating a coruscated landscape
Flash in the pan
Pointless concordances
Citations and indentions missing
Erosion errata

(come now see it now
then come see it later
and later even again
and yet some other time and compare
the canyons are scored
if it — whatever it is — doesn’t catch
and you don’t know what you intended
it may be lost forever)

Open your pipes
Eat the acid
Swallow the sky

What I’m Reading:

“When I am sleeping
I find my pillow full of dreams. 
They are all new dreams:
No one told them to me
Before I came through the cloud.”

— Hilda Conkling / “About My Dreams”

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made and not

the odds

the mathematical odds of being struck
by a meteor while you mind your own business

the odds of a flying fish slapping you
in the face while deep sea fishing

the chances of a teacher killing
a creative spark within you

the certainty a parent will mindlessly
treat you the way their parents treated them

the struggle to chart your own course
in order to avoid the mined waters

the entropy
the will

the choices
the chances

made
and not

What I’m Reading:

“Is it possible I could go mad and do something horrendous?

I’ve gone very mad before.”

— Rae Rose / “Am I Going to Kill My Daughter”

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the gap’s gap

ouroboros (tanka)

a gap in the node
then a node in the gap’s gap
then cycle again
the beginning is the end
the end is the beginning

What I’m Reading:

“My fallopian arms have lost
the power to draw miracles from her fingers
at her own volition. Our eggs are drying up.”

— Julene Waffle / “Without Consent”

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(back) in my neighborhood pt. 27

What I’m Reading:

“I walk in order to somatically medicate myself against the psychosis of contemporary urban living.”

— Will Self / The New York Times

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join the circus

The Best Stuff I Read This Week

“The most important thing we learn at school is the fact that the most important things can’t be learned at school.”

— Haruki Murakami / What I Talk About When I Talk About Running


“Someone forgot to whisper your death to the bees
And so all the bees have left
And the fruit trees have died.”

— Ansel Elkins / “Someone Forgot to Whisper Your Death to the Bees”


“You’re stepping on your father, my mother said,
and indeed I was standing exactly in the center
of a bed of grass, mown so neatly it could have been
my father’s grave, although there was no stone saying so.”

— Louise Glück / “Aborigonal Landscape”


“This raises the inevitable question: What’s your policy
on fog? When it gets in bed with you, who’s on top?
Dances with you, who leads?”

— Bob Hicok / “Elements”


“If you touch it between the legs,
the splendid body will quicken
like bubbles in a just-on teakettle.”

— Rebecca Lindenberg / “The Splendid Body”


“… AS YOU STAND THERE AND GRILL HALAL

NOT JUST A REFUGEE WITH A BIG BEARD AND TRACKSUIT

NOW A DRAGONFLY LANDS ON YOUR ARM”

— Yahya Hassan / “Ramadan”


“Wonder is where it starts, and though wonder is also where it ends, this is no futile path.”

— Herman Hesse / Butterflies: Reflections, Tales, and Verse

What I’m Listening To:

“He grew up in a trailer, by the time he was nine
Rolled off to join the circus, telling fortunes on the side
Hail, hail, the Eyeball Kid”

— Tom Waits / “Eyeball Kid”

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jaw-dropping neighborly

lemmings sound (found tanka)

haircut locals fray,
cowlick, tangle, and split-end
at the seams that bind —
courtyard sector loggerheads
jaw-dropping neighborly love.

What I’m Reading:

“Pain is inevitable. Suffering is optional.”

— Haruki Murakami / What I Talk About When I Talk About Running

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in (my) this neighborhood pt. 26

What I’m Reading:

“Four wheels swerve to avoid a sheer cliff, southbound on the 101.
The fat sun slides its yolk into the glass ocean. Slow down, see
an empty nest of woven round sticks in the praying tree.”

— Melinda Palacio / “The Praying Tree”

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last two months

Everything, Everything

Everything ran down,
Everything went off,
Everything derailed,

Everything—the last two months—

Everything must pass,

Everything, now,
Everything reset,
Everything anew,

Everything restarts.

What I’m Reading:

“We must live life forward and attempt to make sense of it backward. So we fail in both directions.”

— James Hannaham / Pilot Impostor

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