deal with that

Letter Never Sent

Dear X—

Don’t fight the demons in your head—that will always be a losing proposition. You must realize the demons are there. The demons were invited in at an impressionable age and will always live in your head. You should acknowledge the demons and realize that they will not go away; they will reside in your head as long as you have consciousness. Embrace those demons; they are part of you, and then release them every time they appear and they will eventually dissipate of their own accord. They may stop manifesting themselves as often as they do now, or they may not, but railing against them and haranguing yourself for having them with you will amount to nothing but a self-imposed misery. They will always be there, or at the peripheries, and you must deal with that.

Best & Love—

C.

“Too many things to name are gone and we are left with this clowning earth, these cynical trees—shadows, all, of themselves. And we, too, are beyond help.”

— Lydia Davis / “Smoke”

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hard cover deeds

Softcover Words

Read this “How to…” book
and communicate in softcover words
your hard cover deeds —

herding sheep and goats,
lying with packs of dogs,
theorizing  yersinia pestis theorems,
and puzzling though a sheaf
of sanity assassins.

Read about the coughing
and sneezing of the infected.
Eat stands of banana, malanga, and yuca.

And make ten thousand marks
silvery and lustrous gray —

recounting the executions carried out
by children bored of kicking
old oil drums green
and rusted brown.

This is fall in Jamaica Plain, MA, on 10/10/2021, at 1:32pm.

“Loving someone is like having a mental illness that’s not covered by health insurance…”

— Haruki Murakami / “On a Stone Pillow”

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pocketful of prairie

Ringo Nuggets Haiku

Voles strapped in for speed
Pocketful of prairie dogs
We’re going places

“We’ve reached the precise moment when the fairies intervene, although only indirectly.”

— Jose Saramago / The Lizard

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don’t disappoint anyone

Workshop Notes

Various ideas for your book:

Include a scene at a rheumy palace—

Maybe adapt a scene from a nonfiction setting on shipwrecked cay.

Maybe not.

Use these words liberally:
ablation; asperity; cassocks; chasubles; hooded cowls; astringent; incursive; afflux; minikin; Grand Guignol; rutilant; cadge; rebus; limpid; enmity; hackles; pathoformic; sabbat; afflatus.

Format: one-hundred / 100-word chapters.

End abruptly, midway through the narrative, and append a long footnote that elucidates nothing.

Add Autocorrected Texts and Overheard Conversational Automatism.

Include two single word chapters: “Isotope” and “Gunplay” on pages 33 and 66, respectively.

Include the anecdote about the Girl Scout merit badge you were awarded for Sailing.

Title the work:
Lime Automatic See-Thru Cats Aging in the He Code Other Using Nixon No-Stow Straws

Include the anecdote about Harry and Jerry not having cottage cheese on their plates at your Sweet Sixteen BBQ—and how Stone took the big wooden spatula and rammed it into Orpheus.

Remember people are usually pessimistic about rain.

Include the scene where you make peanut butter and jelly sandwiches for every potential boyfriend on the first date.

Include the line: “I’m not a hipster.”

Don’t disappoint anyone.

No one was mad at you!

Remember what Dr. Greene said:
“Writing is a form of therapy; sometimes I wonder how all those who do not write, compose, or paint can manage to escape the madness, melancholia, the panic and fear which is inherent in a human situation.”

Include the words THE END.

“The end of this story should give us hope, but it doesn’t give us hope.”

— Alejandro Zambra / Bonsai

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photographs plastic toys

the cult

the leap—

wood
nails
staples
tape
photographs
plastic toys
fake flowers
paper

“Frisky the Clown has a new act for the kids;
He smothers them using foam.”

— Kenneth Jarrett Singleton / “The Conceptual Circus”

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frozen in place

Affix Us (redux)

A vicious penny farthing flashes across the window, as the dreadful coins are placed upon her eyes. The incantations from the holy man’s mouth sound like blaspheme as the sky grows bright outside.

We move across the floor in time to the funeral dirge, we move across time with the conviction of ascetic monks. When we stop the shadows affix us to our places; we stop sobbing and silence fills the empty spaces.

As the sun arcs out the top of the window, we remain frozen in place. The shadows grow long in filtered light and we grow as we stand here still.

“Of all that thrives among Satan’s noisome progeny, the rock drill and mosquito.”

—Maurice Riordan / “Laudation”

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propelling the day

Fingertips

I’ve come untethered
Three days lost and out of sorts
Now the correction

Sitting on the train
The snow blows blinding outside
Heavy wet and sad

The Wailers’ singles in my ears
Provide the syncopation
Propelling the day

On the balcony
In yellow afternoon light
A thrush in the snow

Pink skies cede to blue
Melted snow transformed to ice
Anticipation

West, the dream maker bicycles
For all ages a unique mile
On fingertips

“I write all the things I need on the bottom
of my tennis shoes. I say, Let’s walk together.”

— Ada Limón / “Sharks in the Rivers”

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the action unspooling

Raw Manifold

… let’s move on to dreams, phosphenes and the armatures and substructures that make up those worlds. Even in the most extreme and intense dreams one may see below the action unspooling in said dream narrative and peak at the structures moving the characters and things about in a dream. If one sneezes hard and freezes their vision—or better yet, rubs their closed eyes hard for five seconds—revealed to them for a few short moments will be the armatures, or puppet master’s strings if you will, that move things about in one’s dreams. They are always present, but in the waking state have nothing affixed to their ends—nothing to clasp on to, and you don’t see them. But blow out your consciousness and they will be forever present—waiting for the characters to mount, the scenery to take its places, the director to yell “action”…

“Dog autumn attacks.
Syphilis autumn.
And death visits
one of twilight’s paralyzed legs.”

—Seungja Choi / “Dog Autumn”

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in my neighborhood

“We rub blisters
over billows of leaf smoke. Or stand alone,
bagging gold for the cold days to come.”

— David Baker / “Neighbors in October”

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sold us all

black matte spray collimate ii.

at the museum of digest feminism
Boccaccio quotes have been stricken thru

the time to digress was then—
sometime in the 14th century wrought

in yersinia pestis yellow and arte della lana blue—
centuries before its gabardine inception

such foul humors seep thru the crack
in Boccaccio’s wall

the identifying placard in the shape
of a carmine-limned lanced buboe

“Meanwhile, we’re drinking our four-dollar lattes and improving our bodies. The capitalist world has sold us all on…”

so much depends on a red
transliteration

glazed with testosterone rage beside
the white klan hood

“Sod it, let’s see what comes out!
¡mierda! postmodern deconstructed construction”

“We have plans for you, they say.
And we laugh. As narcotic ghosts cling
to the storms of our bodies
we laugh.”

— Marie-Andrée Gill / Spawn

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